I feel like I've been living a double life. There are the two competing personalities. I thought of this was on the toilet talking to my Dad... or at least I was imaging having an honest conversation with him.
But then It occurred to me, (I really need to back up) maybe we all live this way. Maybe we all have not two but the multiple personalities that come from wherever the hell they come from. I think its probably that since literally we are made up of other things (our parents who where created by their parents, maybe spirits abound that latch on as the scientologist say, a bit of everything and anything in some way) we have all these personalities from competing sources. In our journey through life, we successfully compress the characteristics of these distinct and overlapping personalities into one presence if we can achieve it.
So maybe I'm ok... but I'm pretty sure I'm just fucked up.